记得要忘记 -[邪犯心包]

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曾经说过记得要忘记 秋天将我们都放逐的很远，于是我们不得不奔波在遥远而没有尽头的路上，寂寞的路途上没有了很多优美的风景，只有漫漫的愁苦，来这里坐吧，驿路上的上的一片枫叶，为你装点生活的快乐与忧伤，以及所有………………………… / 首页 / 肾虚水泛(0) / 邪犯心包(2) / 水寒射肺(0) / 肝气郁结(0) / 脾失健运(1) / 分页: [1] 2004-12-15 19:12 记得要忘记 -[邪犯心包] 还记得那很多的事情 曾经说过要忘记的那些事情 但是又在无意间有想起来 说过了要好好的忘记那些过去的琐事 但是却又在无意之间想起来了 不知道是为什么 有的时候的确是很大程度上的忘记了 但是却在没有任何迹象的时候 狭路相逢 我不该再次的记起 很想以一种极为平常的心态来对待 但是没有办法啊 几乎是一种很放肆的心态在体内蔓延了 我是独自一个人在无边际的思想的固牢中徘徊 想一想 这又有何必呢?? 朋友一次又一次对我这样说过 我说我忘不了啊 毕竟曾经是真真正正的经历过了啊 说 这个就说明你很善良 善良??? 那为什么她要离开我? 这个也说明你是一个好人 好人??? 那为什么她要离开我? 没有答案 一直没有任何一个明确的迹象表明我的理由的答案 就这样过了这么长的时间 是我的错误导致了现在的结局 曾经说过爱你 现在依然爱你 只是爱你不能和你在一起 只有最后的愿望 希望你能过的很好很好 bensnlee 发表于 19:12 | 阅读全文 | 评论(0) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 2004-12-15 16:55 一个人的等待 -[脾失健运] 音乐在耳朵里盘旋,每一个音符都让我回想起很多关于你的东西,我现在是越来越没用了,连写东西都离不开音乐,不知道为什么,我有时会很害怕很害怕,害怕音乐不再响起,害怕只有我一个人的冰冷窗沿,害怕我的文字会像你一样离开我并且永远不再回来,是呀,我变了,变的安静了,真的. 我试着保持沉默,可却很担心心会沉默,害怕沉默到再也想不起你了,害怕你在见到我时我会很老很老,害怕...... 我总是这样那样担心着,所以,我一直没有改变,一直都只在自己的世界里盘旋流浪,再自己的感情里反复扮演离开和出走,一次又一次关上你的房门,又一次一次的打开希望你在里面会给我惊喜,结果,次次都是一个人躺在落满灰尘的地板上哭的泣不成声. 有人说我很傻,不该去想一个死了的人,可我就是不愿相信你死了,你的笑容会时不时的从我眼前闪过,它是那么的真实,每次都让我用力伸出手想抓住你,可是每次都让我跌的很重很重,我重重的摔在你的影子中,然后好想让你的影子抱住我,可每次都是一阵烟消云散你从我眼前消失不见...... 我不知道什么是我期待的,也不敢去期待什么,更不敢相信任何诺言,因为你对我承诺说你不会离开我,可你却消失了三年零两个月,所以明白过来,诺言都是骗人的东西,它轻的敌不过任何一粒沙. 我反复的想念着,可在这想念中却反复的遗忘着,我弄丢了很多很多,弄丢了你的吻,弄丢了你的温度,弄丢了你的拥抱,也弄丢了你的味道,我,真的是个失败者. 我还住在咱们的那间房里,你的房间我一直留着,我在你的窗户上挂了淡蓝色的窗帘,直到现在我还会时不时的站在窗户边,打开窗子看城市中和我无关的车水马龙 ,你知道吗?咱们窗前的那棵槐树被砍掉了,就在你跟我说再见的第二天,我是看着它被砍倒的,我看着那些人把它锯断然后一点点的从土里挖出它的根,它的根藏的很深很深,深到我看着眼前的一幕幕痛到心揪了起来,最后,有人在这里修了马路,很宽很宽的那种,车很多,但都是呼啸而过,没有停靠的站台,路两边修了很多很多昏黄色的路灯,天一黑后,灯就亮了,一排排,一盏盏洒下一丝丝温暖的光线,它们离的很近可就是不能拉起手来,因为它们是那么的不自由. 从你走后,槐树没了,却多了很多路灯,于是我成天成天的站在窗口,看眼前一辆辆呼啸而过的车,想你会不会在其中的某辆上,想你会不会透过玻璃看站在这里的我...... 我现在已经习惯了马路和路灯,习惯了槐树的别离,可就是习惯不了你不在身边,我很没用是吧?我想是的,因为你的离开彻底摧毁了我心里的全部防线,我就像是个被拔光了刺的刺猬一样,露出血迹斑斑的烂肉,独自徘徊在现实和不可能实现的希望中,一次次被打击的伤痕累累. 渐渐的,我习惯了,真的. 有人笑我说我是只掉光了毛的孔雀,于是,我就笑着对他们说我是掉光了毛的孔雀,而且还是只喜欢跟别人炫耀自己美丽的掉光了毛的孔雀,呵呵,能怎样? bensnlee 发表于 16:55 | 阅读全文 | 评论(0) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 2004-12-15 16:38 write to BENBEN -[邪犯心包] Hi, Benben, I read your message left for me just now, thanks for your kindness, as you said, it is very cold here, and yesterday we got a heavy snow. You should take care of yourself, because you live alone in the university. Health is the first thing; study or work is the second. I remember that I had promised I would write something to you in blog, ok, I must make it now. These days I have given up my blog on blogcn website, I find the speed there is so slow that I have to change another, my new blog website is: http://waterlily6797cn.blogdriver.com, welcome to my new home online. I don’ know very much about your character, I know a little just depended on what you write in your blogs. I couldn’t tell you what you have done in university time is right or false, because whether it is right or false, they have made of your colorful campus, if you lost one piece of them, it means your most beautiful and shining human life is not perfect，even it is wrong, it will give you some good experiences which are helpful for your future. I have been looking forward to the free and easy and stylish life, I think most of people think so too. Campus is a peaceful space in modern nervous and cruel society, you have no reasons not to treasure it, I am sure it must be your most pretty memories in your aging process. But simple is just simple, peace is just peace, it is just opposite, once you step into the real society, you have to face all kinds of trouble and difficulties, if you have not prepared for this, you must be confused, perhaps you will lose your confidence to go ahead. In order to avoid what I have mentioned above, you have to study hard all which you should know and acquire all certificate which you should have. All these will give you a good beginning for your career after you leave your campus. With the nice starting point, the difficulties stopped you from success will recuce. I know you had a girlfriend before, but you have broken up. After all, love is so great that everyone is eager to touch and own it, as long as you strive to maintain the relationship between you and that girl, you shouldn’t regret any more, perhaps the reason why you couldn’t go along together is the fate. Leave it behind you, time is the best doctor, do what you should do, in the near future you will feel better, at that time, when you remember her as if she is just an old friends of yours who have moved to another city. Ok benben, let me stop here, hope everything goes well with you, bless you! bensnlee 发表于 16:38 | 阅读全文 | 评论(0) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 分页: [1] 2004 年 12 月 Sun Mon Tue Wen Thu Fri Sat 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 最后更新 记得要忘记 一个人的等待 write to BENBEN 最新评论 存档 我的链接 http://www.blogcn.com/User5/bensnlee/index.html