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我的天 我天地，我胡来！ 情同手足 Mi Internacional Cielo ¿双击可滚屏? ¿我天地? ¿我胡来? 首页 烂日记 (152) 论尽 (14) 想当年的作业 (13) 回忆录 (11) aprender español (18) 扮IT (5) 天地行 (10) 军训日记 (18) 分页: [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12] [13] 最后页 2004-11-05 21:46 I Am The Ugly One - 烂日记 The university sports meeting eventually held today. I didn’t hold and hope or confidence long before. I won’t be the superstar; the only request is I wouldn’t be the ugly one. Actually, my terrible dream came true. Arrived at the Huashang playground, and I had to find one to hold my tennis pat, there were only two people I know, I had no choice but one. Wait a while, and I had to go to check in. They asked me to go there before my item started, so I did it. As the tradition of SCAU, they wouldn’t start their work on time. SCAU has a very strange tradition; the entire athletes have their own amahs. The amahs help athletes do some things and let them to do better. My amah is a female, and just like a SBB. I didn’t know how to say my demand and he didn’t know how to do something to make me better either. I saw a girl in my Food College dressed in all red, the red vest and the red shorts; all the dresses just liked the professor athletes. In the college select compete; I had experience her “professor”(just look like) preparative exercise. And this time, her dress showed her must be the superstar, but I wonder, could she do that. Because even in the college select compete, she just got the second prize (and I was the third), did she hold her strength, I didn’t know, and none of my business. Her amahs also use something to gather up, to let her muscles to in the fittest state, I also wonder whether it was useful, even so, I wouldn’t let it happen on me. The reason was her amah is a girl and mine is a boy. My SBB amah was still SBB. He knew nothing at all. I had to do my preparation and he stands far away, and just nursing my bag and shoes. The “professor” girl started her “professor” preparation still. The female 100-metre race was about to start. I was in the first group, and without a real amah, I had to find someone to affirm. So I asked the “professor” girl in my group, and her answer (in a cold voice) was “Of count! Are you sleeping?” At that time, I really wanted to give her a heavy punch, and let her collapse before the completion. But I controlled myself and replied a “thank you” as a manner. In fact, the raging fire was burning inside, if I did a good job, I would “give you some cooler to see see”. But this thought disappear rapidly, the fact let it die. When I still drive my run up machine, the judge shout “ready”, I had to squatted in a very uncomfortable way, and when begin, my heart was still in its proper place. When I started my running, I had 5 meters behind other. And I was also not a superman; I couldn’t let the miracle to happen. I lose in a very ugly way. And the “professor ” girl got the first prize of this group. But after a while, I heard she still couldn’t attend the final, though she and me were in the same college, in a short time, I really felt a little happy. Was I a “bad heart” one? It seemed I could go home. I went to get back my tennis pat, and could leave the sad place. But another accident that shows my ugly happened. My classmate who kept my tennis pat was not there. And I asked anybody I knew, but still could not find her, so it meant I couldn’t leave. I didn’t afraid. I found anywhere of the playground, asked anybody just liked a mad person, but the result was still zero. After two hour, I still couldn’t fine her. After the completion, I didn’t why my knee was bleeding, my amah asked me at that time, I just say nothing serious, and after two hours I still had no pain, the wound looked a little terrible, but actually or by heart, I really felt nothing. Even though I forgot I have hurt. The biggest problem was I must find out my tennis pat classmate. She didn’t have mobile phone and nobody knew where she was. After two hours searching, I didn’t have any endurance anymore. When I saw my other classmates, I would immediately yell at them. I didn’t how horrible I was, but I must be a crazy man. Yelling at anybody, and the action just liked I killed the people who disappeared with my tennis pat. I couldn’t control myself, I just knew to show my feeling at that way, but in fact, I was just impatient and had no complaint to that classmate at all. In others’ eyes, my visualize must be completely collapse. That’s my emotion weak point. I had no different between Antonio ( La Coteña y El Cachao ) always complains, and Armando at the very beginning always yell at others. I didn’t know whether others would remember this thing forever, if it did, I had no choice. 我把我最丑恶的一面都在今天展现了。失败的比赛，失败的交流，失败的表达，失败的控制……虽然这一切都不是我想怎样就怎样的，但这就是我的致命弱点，我接受，我必须接受。我需要从中改正，与此同时我需要时间我需要试验，希望他人会给我。我要成为一个新的我。现在回想起，我还有一个缺点就是现在不喜欢别人挑我的刺，对我说“ no, no, no ”，我必须改掉。我要成为勇于面对诤言的从前的无私的小时候的我，剔除自己的任何私心，做一个单纯的人，虽然单纯的人很傻，但只有很傻的人才能无私地为人民服务。 xrspook , the ugly one, is the last time to be the ugly. xrspook @ 21:46 | 阅读全文 | 评论(0) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 2004-11-04 00:46 Some Knots In My Stomach - 烂日记 Because of tomorrow sports meeting, I couldn't go home today. It's really an extremely good chance. Because of 0.5point, I miss a golden chance. After three weeks we will have tennis test, but now I couldn't control my ball, as I liked. And the most terrible thing was I had to have 800-metre race test next week or the week after the next week. 800-metre is my biggest knot. Every time I afraid of it very much. Maybe for it's terrible process, it just continual a few minutes, but during this time I will just like going to the hell and then coming back, the bad feeling can't describe by words. All the muscles of your body are very tired, and your breath heavily, each breath you can feel the pain from your nose, you mouse, your trachea and your lung. Your body no matter inside or outside is in a more unconformable state. And then after the nonhuman 4 minutes, I will like catch a terrible cold for a week. So I like all the sport except 800-metre race, I can't stand that horrible feeling. So now, I began to be afraid that test, though I know I must past or get a full mark, I really hate that test. 心结还有中午送来的摄影协会的开会通知，可恶到了极点！今天要开会，明晚也要开会，把我一切的计划都破坏到体无完肤。已经没有人理会它了，为什么它还是给我们来通知。最惨的是我们的学术活动手册都扣留在它那里，无论如何今天晚上也要去，谁叫我们星期一做了不好的XX勾当。 可恶可恶，今天晚上听的又是那个党委的“梁主任”。军训期间已见识过他说话的厉害，普通话极端不准，说话长气得无法形容，今天又是他经典的“今天我们的话题就从这里开始”，此时，全场04大一新生都发出了起哄，回想一个月前军训期间在开大会的时候，以为他要说完，谁知说了这句话，使我们掉进了深渊……虽然环境不同，但我们还心有余悸，惊弓之鸟嘛，心有感触。这个讲座本来是有0.2分，但我们的学术手册还没到，以为可以来拿，谁知其他人都有，今天又要上交才有0.2分，这不是耍我们吗？扣留了我们的手册，又搞到我们白坐2个半小时，很讨厌，决定明晚一定不去开它的会员大会，哼，give you some colour to see see（胡说）。 How can I solve my knot? xrspook @ 00:46 | 阅读全文 | 评论(0) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 2004-11-03 00:17 进了100米 - 烂日记 There is two days to our school meeting. This morning I saw my name on the athletes' list of our college in the end. To my surprise, I would attend in 100-metre race instead of shot, which was my class item, I loss in that my proudest item, but won in the first attempt item. What a great surprise! Though I thought my running was not to bad. You can see, just finished running and start throwing at once, how could I get a good mark! Or how could I show my normal level. 机械制图，又是昏昏欲睡，不是老师太沉闷，也不是我不用心，而是……昨天晚上的“被窝作业”真痛苦，连做作业也要偷偷摸摸（因为晚上11：30就要关灯，但作业还没做好）。从昨天开始，blog的“ 烂日记 ”开始一半英文一半中文，虽然洋不洋鬼不鬼的，但用全英语表达日常生活真的很好玩，就如开始用中文写blog那样， 心里想写与实际写的不一样，要不就写不出，要不就词不达意，好好笑。 There is so "funny" that Maoism lessons and the Food & Science summary lessons both said a famous sentence that made by Chairman Mao "The political power are made from the gun." The politics lessons told about this thing were not so strange, but the food specialty lessons also told about it was so funny. Tonight I had to go to college building to have my sports games mobilize meeting. It's so boring, just said the same thing. I couldn't believe that they said the sports meeting would be very large and professional, but it even wouldn't have running up machines, and asked the athletes who would run under 400-metre must squat when starting. How can they do that? What's professional!!! Just a normal P.E. test, just a small middle school or in a very bad primary schools, they would have such simple machines. What's my university? South China Agriculture University is really Outdate stuff. Before the meeting, they also gave me my invitation, just like it's a very important things and it's very proud thing. 我不期望我在100米会有什么骄人的成绩，因为从没练过，他们也没给我练的时间，顺应天命，我唯一的选择。只有安慰自己，进入已经是一种好运，一种幸福，应该满足。 xrspook @ 00:17 | 阅读全文 | 评论(0) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 2004-11-02 23:42 English Daily-Power Up - 烂日记 Terrible me! Today I arrived at the classroom at 7:00 AM, at that time just two people there. There’s something wrong with me. Just like yesterday, I did some English exercises and then read “Español Moderno” read English and Español really made me very spiral during the two chemical classes. At the break of the classes I read Español, it’s really very efficient to me, so that I could put all my heart in listening to teacher. Then I went to practice tennis. Just to find a place, it cost a lot of time. The boys who played terrible football, if I still went there had taken the best place; I just wanted to kill myself. To find a place, we attempted for several places, at last I practiced in the road of A3 and A4. Pat the ball against the wall, I had to pick and pat, just repeated the same movement. But it was still not good enough; it’s always higher or lower, the right ball just appeared 10%. But I must practiced, I didn’t want to be shouted by the tennis teacher for “You haven’t take back your tennis pat, you haven’t finish the action” or “Don’t play too energetically!” (Because it’s really dangerous, will intimidate him or others safe, all of this I have said in my earlier daily.) I must let him and others see my real power, I must give them a great show, let them jealous me! Ha! ha! 今天决定用英汉同时写blog，因为没有太多的时间说英语，只有这样。至于语法错误什么的我就不管了，管TM的。 也去了“ 百佳 ”， 百佳 里没花钱，出了 百佳 到 M（Mcdonald） 就花掉了17.5，吃麦辣鸡腿汉堡超级套餐，好久没吃了，一年都没吃了，可能因为华农的湘川菜的锻炼，我再也不觉得那以前劲辣的包辣了。 It's just a start. What will happen if I write all the dailies in English? xrspook @ 23:42 | 阅读全文 | 评论(0) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 2004-11-01 23:13 画图――爱你更加 - 烂日记 机械制图原来感觉比画画发几何感觉好多了。画法几何就给一个图，然后上面有点，要你在另外的三视图画出，既无聊又困难，有时呆坐半小时也没有半点头绪，不会做的，你抄也不会做。 今天开始说的原来才是机械制图，以前一直在学画法几何，感觉好多了。虽然也免不了恐怖的取点，但总比对着一个圆锥、圆球、圆柱混合体来画什么相贯线好。图是复杂了，但我觉得更好玩。看到一个貌似组合体，由多个部件构成的立体图画三视图真的很好玩，很有挑战性。我知道这不是什么闹着玩的东西，但真的新鲜有趣。 但别看就几个简单的几何图形构成，画了2个作业的臭东西也画了我2个多小时。首先研究数据，然后取位，之后画底稿，老师就说一个部分一个部分来画，三个视图要同时完成一个部件，我就想怎么画就怎么画，画得顺心，不会漏就好了。检查过没有错后再用2B加深。工序就几步，但也画死人。但并不太痛苦，我反而很享受其中的乐趣，画的时候有种“专业”的感觉，自己就是专业设计师或工程师。（哈，我又发疯了：） 晚上打算去听摄影协会的讲座，晚上7：00到（讲座7：30开始），但已没有位置，无奈之下放下那个学术盖章的东西就走了。（这样做是不是很不好？没办法，形势所逼嘛！）然后直到10：15才把图画完。（回来洗澡后已经9：00）中午的高数做的什么“高阶导数”、“隐函数”导得我晕头转向，18道题做了2个多小时，我真的…… 终于做完了一天的作业。祝自己“万圣节快乐”。不过没人扮鬼吓我，哎！ xrspook @ 23:13 | 阅读全文 | 评论(0) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 2004-10-31 23:11 做个演员很难 - 烂日记 曾经想成为一个演员，因为可以扮演很多在实际生活中不可同时做到的角色，但要当一名好演员真的好难。 就拿自己为例吧，曾经演过《茶馆》里面的康大叔，是个大粗人，说话要粗声粗气，这本对我不难，但要说话和动作都同时做到那种效果，真的挺有难度。当时只有几句台词，但也背得我要生要死，记不住词，都不知道是顾身体动作还是口里的语言又还是面部表情，反正一团糟。最后还是成功了，谁想到一个女生可以演如此一个大老粗的角色。 但这仅仅是当专业演员遇到的很皮毛的问题。更大的问题应该是无法想象的工作量。今天在 Anita, no te rajes 的英文论坛那里看到了一则 讨论 JEA 戴眼镜的问题 。显然， JEA 有近视，而且可能是深度的，因为他的采访没有一个是不戴眼镜的，但他在 Anita, no te rajes 里面却要扮演一个不戴眼镜的Eduardo,所以只能戴隐形眼镜。戴眼镜的人不戴眼镜是种痛苦，我自己就是一个活生生的例子。于是人们就说 JEA 在工作之余一定会戴普通的眼镜来舒缓疲劳，而这就是重点“工作之余”，是在每天工作16、17个小时之余，我想没有一个职业要每天工作16、17个小时吧，太恐怖了！这样的工作，专业演员们还能有能力背老长的台词？还记得很久很久以前，在拍完 Yo soy Betty, la Fea 之后有人问 JEA 最想干什么，他会选择睡觉，因为他说他3天共睡了3小时，人还要活吗？在这种超级脑缺氧的情况下还能表演出合适剧情的东西吗？还能装得很精神？很快乐？很享受？我觉得如果在那种情况下，我不原地晕倒已经是奇迹了。 身为主角，工作量更大。由于可以兼做导演，摄影导演，工作量更大。拍的是喜剧，一天到晚都要做好笑的表情、动作或说语言使大家快乐，而自己却承受痛苦，当演员，难啊！这可不可以说是让别人的快乐建立在自己的痛苦之上呢？外加一点，就是拉美的电视剧还喜欢用老长老长的对白和极多的XX镜头，人在疲劳的情况下，如何完成啊！ xrspook @ 23:11 | 阅读全文 | 评论(0) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 2004-10-31 10:47 What Life A College Freshman has!!!(Ⅱ)(publish on weekend) - 想当年的作业 The most things I can't bear is that the College of Food and Science can't allow all the freshman to bring computer the first year. What rule is that! How can they do so! Because they afraid the freshman can't control them will lose their heart in surf online or play computer games. But even though the freshman can't control, will they affirm the old students can control? How funny this answer is! Even in Senior Three, I still surf online, but now my life is … After Final Examination, I used to write my dairy online. Everyday whatever it is difficult, I will stick to write. A lot of student do that, that kind of thing called "blog"(a shared on-line journal where people can post diary entries about their personal experiences and hobbies; a daily written record of (usually personal) experiences and observations), when I start my first essay I had swear to myself, I must continual to do this, no matter how difficulty I met. I don't want to break my commitment, eat my words! But the real life tell me, you can't! Every weekend I have to go home and type my dailies into computer, I have to type five passage or more! Terrible! How much time I have to spend! And how boring it is! But if I do it everyday, I just need to use 15 minutes. The big problem is that I have no computer. When I didn't start my blog, I didn't like writing or communicating at all. But now, because of blog, I completely changed. Now my blog has more than 200 essays, all of that narrate my colorful life. That's my valuable memory. It evidence my grown up. If I still do it all my life, think about it, after 30 years or more, I pick it up and review, what feeling I will have? Or you will say, just a daily, why not just write in papers? Because write them on blog, your experience can share with many more people. Sharing your life with other, isn't good? And your experiences maybe really can help others, your knowledge need us to share. If we know share, our life will become more comfortable. The thing I can't bear is that, why the South China Agricultural University must separate the web in China and in foreign countries? If I want to surf the web of foreign country I have to have special request, and have to pay more, why? Internet, what's the meaning of Internet? (Internet [the meaning from Oxford Advanced Learner's English-Chinese Dictionary-Extended fourth edition]: international computer network, which consist of a large number of individual computers and computer systems, connected by telecommunications circuits.国际互联网，因特网) B ut in our school, can it be international? Some people said the students in South China Agricultural University are old style person. Now maybe I know the reason. Because of too less chances to communicate with the world. Even we are agricultural school, but why can't we change the "Tu Bao Zi" called? I think the first step we must change the thought of the leading group. Though I just a girl, and my course is Food and Science. I am still be eager to have computer and can surf in foreign website. It just a little request why not comes true??? I am an adult, but why not believe me??? The entire computer projects just become a cat with gloves. In a word, it broke my heart. xrspook @ 10:47 | 阅读全文 | 评论(4) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 2004-10-30 23:41 我为书狂 - 烂日记 相比电脑的电子图书，我更爱有纸和油墨味的书。给我一种真实感，一种历史的感觉，一种特殊的气氛。同时，看着自己书柜的书籍在增加也是一种乐趣，所以我为书狂。 看完 《等待野蛮人》 以后，对 J.M Coetzee 这个南非作家非常感兴趣。 《等待野蛮人》 给我的感觉有点像 《百年孤独》 ，但看完后没有那么郁闷，没有为 《百年孤独》 里的家族而感到同情，为他们的厄运而伤心了好一段日子。看完 《等待野蛮人》 以后我的心十分平静，思想伸向远方，但到底在哪里我不知道。令我血脉沸腾的是故事中间的部分。那些比较恐怖的描写，没有加入任何个人的因素，作者的感情，但却让我如同亲身经历般痛苦，所有的东西如同历历在目。 那一段段描写摧残人的片段，我的感触特别深。犹如那个情景就发生在你面前，你看着一条条伤痕的制造过程，一声声叫喊的呻吟，但你只能做一个旁观者。我内心的正义在驱使我要去抱打不平，但我却只有站在清晰看到的位置观看的份儿。但同时我的内心又是如此的矛盾，我又害怕我伸张正义的下场会好象老行政长官那样。同样给我深刻印象的是前后好象呼应出现的描写XX的片段，是那么清晰，但又那么模糊。正部小说压根儿就是一部用超大屏幕，环回视角，震撼音效向我播放的电影。清晰的片段就在眼前，但我只能做旁观者，心半随着情节而时快时慢，我完全沉浸在 《等待野蛮人》 其中。 于是今天决定又去把 J.M Coetzee 的余下作品搬回家，我没打算买他出名的作品 《聊》 ，因为现在只有上海译林出版社出版了，是硬皮的，在床上躺着看得不方便（习惯躺着看书，因此眼睛也……）。没有买的也有 《彼得堡的大师》 ，看见名字就知道在说某人，我不喜欢。于是就买了 《伊丽莎白・科斯特洛：八堂课》、《青春》、《迈克尔・K的生活和时代》 。随便翻看了 《青春》 和 《迈克尔・K的生活和时代》 感觉并不如 《等待野蛮人》 强烈，可能与译者有关吧。 突然发现自己迷上的 《百年孤独》 和 《等待野蛮人》 都是在故事中有强烈的反映社会某些问题的作品。但我并不喜欢看完全写实的作品，我更爱那些作品中有些不现实的东西，如果真的把所有问题都通过实在来表达，那就太没水平了。通过寓言类的故事，我会感触特别深。因为我喜欢自己挖掘，我也不喜欢看到作者过多的自我评论什么的。白描使人有深感触，那真的高啊！ 同样是现代主义作品，我不喜欢 《墙上的斑点》 ，因为它太不知怎么说，看着斑点想一大堆东西，我能体会到的就是作者的想象力十分丰富，但看完我的心没有斑点波澜。同样不喜欢的就是 《等待戈多》 ，太深奥了，我不明白，因此没有涟漪。我需要的是从简单中可引出大问题的东西，但因为水平有限，所以不能太深。现代主义作品的先父――卡夫卡，他的 《变形记》 我也挺喜欢，很渴望能看到他出名的作品 《城堡》 ，因为好象每说到现代主义的作品或作家都会提到它，真的很想见识一下。 今天也买了 《书虫――第六级》 （包括： 《简・爱》、《雾都孤儿》、《傲慢与偏见》、《苔丝》 都是英文简写及对照本），还有 《剑桥国际英语3》 的录音带，还有 《新概念英语的词汇手册》 。都是去省图批买的，虽然都有8折，但都买了102.3元。同时发现 《现代西班牙语》 的第4、5册果然没有录音带卖，大部分都只剩下第一册的录音带，难道广州突然有很多人学西文？ 不管如何，我为书狂，又狂掉了一张“红色毛泽东”。 xrspook @ 23:41 | 阅读全文 | 评论(3) | 引用Trackback(0) | 编辑 好文自荐 是喜？是愁？-军训日记 妹仔大过主人婆-军训日记 看得起我的人-论尽 I am the best!!!-军训日记 video与我-回忆录 中国路 大众心-论尽 日历 2004 年 11 月 Sun Mon Tue Wen Thu Fri Sat 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30